When do you really start believing what you say to yourself. Wither it be out load or some things you just say to yourself? When do you make a promise to yourself that you really keep?
My weight has been a struggle all my life. I grew up angry at the world and never really did anything about it, till I read a news article about a local man (Larry Coker) that lost I believe at that time over 500 pounds. He was starting up a program for kids that wanted to lose weight. I begged my Mom & Dad to sign me up.
I loved that class and everything about it. I was in an environment where all the kids were felling the same way I did and Larry was our hero. I lost about 65 pounds in that stretch and was on a roll.....
Then one day we all showed up for our weekly meeting and Larry was not there, another week went by and Larry was not there. My parents were paying this Man and he was not there supporting us anymore.
I was crushed and gave up.
Later on in life I would dabble with some other diets and they had minimal results. I then found the Beaumont diet. An all shake diet that surprisingly worked. I lost weight but a trip up north with my friends and a pizza and snacks later saying to myself oh I'll get back on track when we get back home was just the beginning.
I would then gain more weight to only one day wake up to want to do it again.
As determined as ever I started back up on the all shake diet. I was cruising. I was on my way. I lost over 100 pounds only to stumble when my father passed away from cancer. I gained all that weight back and more.
As I sit here and type this, I'm truly in disgust with myself and am looking deep inside me for a new beginning. I need to find a way to control myself and my eating habits. I need to find a way to be more active instead of working my 8 hour day and coming home and sitting in front of the TV and computer.
I've told my wife Amy that I want to join a gym with a trainer and she's very supportive and for it. I have yet to sign up it not because I'm stalling but with the wedding and holidays the money doesn't support it right now.
We have both committed to join weight watchers like we had when we first met and it both worked for us, we'll be starting that the first of the year.
I need to get a hold of my own support system and shake it and tell it that I have many things to live for and goals that I have yet to accomplish.
I'm at my heaviest weight I have ever been at and something needs to change. Wait I NEED TO CHANGE.
There is two goals that I have always made for myself before I leave this world, the first was that I wanted to become a husband. I have fulfilled that goal and the 2nd being that I wanted to be a father.
There's a lot of responsibility that comes with being a father and a husband and that's being able to be here for them. If I want to be a father as much as I say I do then I will make these changes, I will not die on my kids because of something that I feel I can control.
I'm writing this post today as a reminder for myself that I'm promising myself and my future child that I'm going to do everything I can to change my ways.
I know this was long and if your at this point I appreciate all your support.
I will not fail you, me, my wife, or my future family.
Thank You
Sunday, December 6
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I just begun weight watchers this week and am LOVING it. Just with I got in more physical activity. Good luck to you, Jess! and Congrats again!
Eating a pizza is not failure. It's not even a set back. It's just a pizza in between shakes, or whatever else you are doing. Just keep doing MORE of good stuff than bad stuff. If you do MORE of the good stuff, then you are moving in the right direction. Habits of a lifetime take longer than one pizza to change. To change, you'll need to drinks some shakes, work out, eat a pizza, eat 3 more shakes...not decide you are failure because you aren't perfect. If you think you failed because of imperfections in a multi year plan, you will.
If you accept your multi-year plan will have MANY imperfections and you will just keep going in the right direction you have already succeeded.
MikeMc
While Im not overweight im trying to get cut in time for next summer, and its not easy.
I work out 15-20 minutes first thing in the morning after a glass of water.
The best time to work out is by far in the morning right after you get out of bed and a glass of water or two. Dont eat anything else and do some cardio or execising for 15-20 minutes. Why this is good is because you have no sugar or energy in your body, and when you work out, the calories burned are fat and nothing else. tHEN after you work out take one or two shakes of yours if it has proteins, will help burn more fat. Good luck ill be back here soon...oh and congrats on your marriage!
Small steps, pal. Small steps. Treat every positive movement you make as a small victory. My wife and I both lost about 75 pounds each last year doing a modified version of South Beach. We all know, though, that not every diet or program works for every person. The other thing that has really woken me up, surprisingly, is just getting really vigilant about reading labels--I've become a sugar nazi, basically. Between that and watching the overall carb intake, it seems to have done something for me.
Support is incredibly essential to this. Amy will need to help you as much as she can, but the payoff will be worth it. I wish you all the luck, focus and support in the world, Jess. I absolutely believe you can do this.
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