What does it take, A must read if you know Jess Perreca Jr.

When do you really start believing what you say to yourself. Wither it be out load or some things you just say to yourself? When do you make a promise to yourself that you really keep?

My weight has been a struggle all my life. I grew up angry at the world and never really did anything about it, till I read a news article about a local man (Larry Coker) that lost I believe at that time over 500 pounds. He was starting up a program for kids that wanted to lose weight. I begged my Mom & Dad to sign me up.

I loved that class and everything about it. I was in an environment where all the kids were felling the same way I did and Larry was our hero. I lost about 65 pounds in that stretch and was on a roll.....

Then one day we all showed up for our weekly meeting and Larry was not there, another week went by and Larry was not there. My parents were paying this Man and he was not there supporting us anymore.

I was crushed and gave up.

Later on in life I would dabble with some other diets and they had minimal results. I then found the Beaumont diet. An all shake diet that surprisingly worked. I lost weight but a trip up north with my friends and a pizza and snacks later saying to myself oh I'll get back on track when we get back home was just the beginning.

I would then gain more weight to only one day wake up to want to do it again.

As determined as ever I started back up on the all shake diet. I was cruising. I was on my way. I lost over 100 pounds only to stumble when my father passed away from cancer. I gained all that weight back and more.

As I sit here and type this, I'm truly in disgust with myself and am looking deep inside me for a new beginning. I need to find a way to control myself and my eating habits. I need to find a way to be more active instead of working my 8 hour day and coming home and sitting in front of the TV and computer.

I've told my wife Amy that I want to join a gym with a trainer and she's very supportive and for it. I have yet to sign up it not because I'm stalling but with the wedding and holidays the money doesn't support it right now.

We have both committed to join weight watchers like we had when we first met and it both worked for us, we'll be starting that the first of the year.

I need to get a hold of my own support system and shake it and tell it that I have many things to live for and goals that I have yet to accomplish.

I'm at my heaviest weight I have ever been at and something needs to change. Wait I NEED TO CHANGE.

There is two goals that I have always made for myself before I leave this world, the first was that I wanted to become a husband. I have fulfilled that goal and the 2nd being that I wanted to be a father.

There's a lot of responsibility that comes with being a father and a husband and that's being able to be here for them. If I want to be a father as much as I say I do then I will make these changes, I will not die on my kids because of something that I feel I can control.

I'm writing this post today as a reminder for myself that I'm promising myself and my future child that I'm going to do everything I can to change my ways.


I know this was long and if your at this point I appreciate all your support.

I will not fail you, me, my wife, or my future family.

Thank You

Back From The Dead

Holy Shit, I'm blogging after like 2 months of being MIA? I really didn't go anywhere. Was I missed? I'm not even sure how many people actually came and read my blog when I was blogging.

I think I have to go back to the basics and start blogging for myself again and just remember that the readers will come.

I've got a lot coming up in the next few months like getting Married.....

VEGAS.......

Baby Making.....LMAO

Anyway, Things have been going good and bad, planning a weeding and paying for it can be very stressful. I could have been blogging all the details but I can't explain how had no motivation at all to do so. It's kind of funny actually. In the past I would have wanted everyone in the world to know what was going on. Kind of like putting myself out there. Maybe I'm taking the MJ approach lately.

Speaking of MJ RIP my friend you'll be missed in the music world.

ok back to the blog....

So things are picking up quickly not too much time left before the Wedding OCT 23rd

but I want to find some ambition to get back to bloggin. Even if it is for myself.

I enjoy the comments like crazy it makes it much more worth while to log in and find someone read what I have to say and comment. Even if it's negative.

I'm going to try to be more involved and dig deep to find something to blog about.

with that being said, I hope everyone is doing well and hope that I can get my readers back and commenting again.

TB




----------------
Listening to: Kid Rock - Tin Can People (unreleased)
via FoxyTunes