A couple of nights ago I had a very real dream. This dream woke me looking at a sleeping fiance next to me wondering why I have this sense of I don't care.
Here let me explain the dream.....
I was at a funeral home and all of my family and her family were there. I myself was there. Only no one was talking to me and I was trying to get the attention of my fiance. She was ignoring me and I couldn't figure out why. I never once went up to the coffin. I really couldn't make out what the people were saying.
It was when I was closer to my fiance I realized that the conversations everyone was having with her, were about me and how sorry they were. The wedding was beautiful and they can't imagine her being a widow and we didn't even get to start our married life together.
It was then I realized, I was at my own funeral.
About two years ago I was on a mission to lose weight. I had succeed. I had lost over 100 pounds and was on my way. It wasn't easy I had a lot if struggles. At this time though I have to admit I put most of the weight back on.
I had dealt with my father passing and had giving up. But I beat that excuse like it was dating Rhianna...lol I know bad joke. It's true. I had used the excuse of mt fathers passing that it was ok for me to go back to my old habits.
I have a lot to live for. I have only a few simple request to fulfill in my lifetime and that's to be a Husband & a Father.
I've decided to back to what had worked for me. Going back to the lifestyle that I was happy with. I can't express how much better I felt about myself and where I was going when I was losing the weight.
The different reactions I got from people. The encouragement I had gotten. I have to admit, I miss all of that.
This dream, had a very important impact on me. So much so that it's time to do something about my weight again. I really think this dream put it in a different perspective for me. Not only do I have to start caring for myself but for my future wife as well.
SO wit the aforementioned statements, I'm back on my mission. My mission to get healthy. My mission to be there for my future wife & kids. My mission to STAY ALIVE.
